The news

Just a quick rant. I sleep with my television on. And sometimes listening is great. Other times it just really doesn't start my day well. I swear the news just tries its hardest to depress the world. Take this morning for example. The headline was what state has the most toxic air. And my half sleeping brain says..Ohio. And when they return they say Ohio is number one for most toxic air. Because of power plants they said. Well not much any of us can do about air is there? So why make people worry about something they can't change? If I moved to uhhhh...Florida something there would be toxic. If I packed up and went someplace else there would be something wrong with that too. And then this was the icing on the cake. Woman who are taller are more likely to get cancer. Do scientist have anything better to do? I guess that one bugged me because I'm tall. And now apparently I'm more prone to cancer? *rolls eyes* Anyone can get sick. Its not one type. People get sick and its for various reasons. I don't think height has anything to do with it. I just wonder why we sit and try to start mass hysteria. I could be the healthiest person in the world and still get struck with something. I would rather live life not focused on if I'm too tall, in the wrong state breathing the wrong air, eating the wrong foods etc. People who live like that can't possibly be living. There is never going to be a right answer on why some people are given what they are given in life. And trying to figure it out will just make you crazy.

I miss Evan and Eve

Oh how I miss Evan and Eve. And Kenny. And Ari and Gray. I never thought something created in my mind could be so personal and that I would miss it. But I do. I really don't know if anything else will feel like Wingless. I am enjoying writing other things but Wingless is in my soul. That is all.

No wait.... I started a Wingless Playlist, I think I am going to make soundtracks for each volume of the book. I listened to lots of specific songs while writing and it would be cool to put them all together. Such as this one for the end of Back to Life. Its called The mess I made by Parachute.

Here I am

Well seems like its been awhile since I wrote anything. That could be because I feel like my brain is really scattered. Its not so easy anymore to just get one thing accomplished. Causes major anxiety to have a million thoughts going off in your brain at once.
The good part is I wrote almost 300 pages of the newest book. The bad part is I have slacked big time on promoting myself as a writer. But I care a lot more about writing, and when an idea strikes I can't just push it aside.
So today I am going to do some author interviews and jump back into the forums. Need to reconnect with the readers and writers.
The newest book is amazing. I love it. I really think my readers will really enjoy it as much as Wingless.
The world has been a crazy annoying place lately. Sometimes I think I should just unplug my television and internet to not feed into all the bullshit. I'm tired of hearing about Casey Anthony now. The first day or so fine, but now they stretch it into nothing to try and come up with a story. Let it rest already! There are way more important things going on around us. The world seems to have lost focus. The news only worries about things that don't matter. It really is saddening that we care more about celebrity trends and cellphone apps then real issues.
So yes I am still around. And soon enough I will have another book finished and under my belt. I'm trying to enjoy summer, which so far I have.
And to end this I would like to thank my husband for being amazing and so insightful. Sometimes when I write I toss ideas around with him. And this time he really came up with a great idea for Ink. He's great.

This is life.

So I had to blog. Everyone is blowing up Fb abotu Casey Anthony. This is something I have watched on Nancy Grace from the beginning. I will never forget the first news headlines. What kind of mother doesn't report their child missing for 30 days? That was my thinking when it first started.
But sadly it turned into a media circus. Caylee fell through the cracks. Now everyone is enraged because there was no justice. Well how much justice can one get when there is no evidence. I watched some of the trial. It was a bunch of crap spewing from every which way. No one had solid evidence. They had what ifs. They painted a spotty story, but never provided answers, concrete facts.
I guess if they were looking to make the family look really screwed up, well they did that perfectly. I don't like to talk bad about people but something is not right with any of them.
The things that bother me now are simple. Fine she is not guilty, a group of jurors decided to say she wasn't. And I'm sure they feel they did the right thing. Whatever. But somebody still did some kind of harm to that child. I say this because if it was an accident she would have been taken to the ER or 911 would have been called. And instead of constant lies for years, they would have just been mourning a child. The family knows what happened to her. And they all will have to live with that until the day they die. And if its true after death, they will be judged by a higher power.
If they loved Caylee so much, they wouldn't have sat back and lied. They only worried about themselves. The little girl counted on them to take care of her and keep her safe and they failed. And now instead of being human and having a heart, they want to sweep it under the rug and make up lies and tell tales.
So now Casey is going to walk free. She served enough time to really see no time in jail now. But that doesnt mean life is going to be some wondeful time for her now. She has been plastered all over the world. Some people just do not deserve to be parents. I believe regardless if there was proof or not, Casey should have been sentenced and found guilty. Because it was HER CHILD and she was responsible for taking care of her, and she failed! Why can't we make people own up to their stupid choices? Where are the courts for that?

Sunday Sunday Sunday

Yeah I said it, its sunday. Its been a while since I wrote on this blog. Well let's see. On the writing front I am 117 pages into the new book Ink. I am really impressed with how great its going. My best friend says this is my "gem". This is a term we use to say the one lol. Its funny though because it seems we say it alot about our books. I really like Ink, its going so well. I find myself reading the chapters back two three times in a row because its so much fun to read.

I finished another book on the kindle, Jenny Pox. Totally worth the read. My favorite part about reading is finishing and posting a review, that part is a lot of fun. Now I am trying to decide what to read next I have so many on the list. Not sure what I am looking for. I think I am a paranormal romance girl.

Going to a birthday party today, that should be fun.

Oh and on a sales front things are going well, I've even got some more reviews to add to my review arsenal. Someone asked me the other day if reviews ever get easier to handle. I say eventually you take them with a grain of salt. If you think about it, its fun. I like to see what others think about my writing. And most times I feel people feel the way I felt writing when they are reading it. As long as you remember your doing what you love and that you can never ever ever please everyone you should be good to go. Oh and thick skin, because they are not always going to like your beliefs or characters, or your characters actions in the story. Some readers simply enjoy the writing, while others are more wrapped up in facts and details. It all depends on the person. Readers are great, with their viewpoints it helps open your mind and see other people's views on your writing. It can even help you see something you might not have the first time.

Lastly I think all writers improve over time, you learn on the journey. You pick up new habits, you drop old ones. Writing is the greatest thing because there is no one way to do so. I've read many different writing styles lately and I've enjoyed them all in different ways.

whirlwind of thoughts

I figured I would spew forth some of my thoughts before bed. I have a lot on my mind, such as growing older. Its my birthday, and I really don't have any feelings on it. I'm now 28, I don't feel any different really. No gray hairs or wrinkles yet, so thats good. I guess I can say I am wiser, in all the years your lucky enough to still be alive its best to grow smarter, I mean what else is the point in living if you just get even more stupid?
I was also thinking about writing and why when I want to write is when I am not able to. And then the other times when I could I just don't feel like it. Its a really strange thing. I told the hubs the other day I wish a book could be written in like five minutes because this new one is complete in my mind, now its just a matter of purging it all onto paper.
Also today, I came up with an idea for another WINGLESS, yeah I said it. I think its a beautiful idea and a way to start fresh. I wonder what the readers will think.
My new book is coming along, need to bounce it off of my best friend like I always do to get her thoughts on it. This is what I always do, my process. I write and send her chapters,she reads and we sort of gossip like school girls at lunch about the characters. I guess my aim for this story is another romance but with fresh new characters and this new idea, the idea involves music and tattoos. And I do believe it holds a twist like Wingless that makes it very original.
I started two new books today, and I'm sure anyone who reads my blogs can tell how scattered I am. But yes I started two new books today, Fallen by Lauren Kate. And so far its slow, that doesnt mean I don't like it. But so far kind of has me feeling a bit depressed and dark. That could be because of today really. I sometimes am really bothered when I hear about celebs dying. ( I don't know why) maybe cuz any death scareds the bejeezus out of me. But really its just a sad reality that people can die, and people die when they least expect it. And then I feel horrible thinking about how the people who were close to them feel, and my brain shoves me into this place where I sit and think and try to feel what they are feeling, I'm sure that is why I am a writer haha.
I also started reading Jenny Pox and I actually like it, its gritty and sad. And I love how its kind of raunchy in a good way. So far I am pleased, but poor Jenny.
And as my addiction for music grows larger I am on the prowl for more music. Music is such an obsession I crave it, I literally feel sick almost when I don't hear it each day of my life, I wonder if that is normal. If not I dont care, music makes me feel good, its soothing, it balances my brain, my thoughts, my everything.
And lastly I am working on a new goal: Extreme Couponing!!! I am super excited. I am going to try and do what they do on tv, its almost like a game to see how much I can save. I recently discovered the show, and Nate Berkus had some of the coupon ladies on today and it just really propelled me into the idea. I want to try, I really want to see if I can do it. If anything it should prove interesting.
Alright seeing now that I am 28 I know old people arent suppose to stay up late. So I must get some rest so I don't break a hip tomorrow haha

Take a moment

Taking a moment to say R.I.P to Ryan Dunn. I always enjoyed watching him on Jackass. He will be missed! I just watched him last night on Minute to win it with Steve O. Very sad to hear that news today, I hope others learn from these types of incidents. (not saying what is going around is true but if it is, don't drink and drive!)